Go fly a kite... Today I watched my five year old nephew squeal with utter joy over flying a kite for the first time! It flashed me back to my childhood when I would receive a kite in my Easter basket, and the excitement I felt to get outside, and wait for the wind to pick it up! I took this picture today against the backdrop of a stunning sky and my Dad's old weathered barn. The contrasts in the photo reflect how I am feeling right now. I feel a beautiful mess! I am ready to soar like the kite and rise above the old. I can see that there are some dark clouds and challenges ahead, and that the wind will pull me back down to the old. I will tug on that string over and over to keep floating above it all! I have not blogged for so long. I got really wrapped up in life, and I have back-pedaled with my health a bit. I am not going to be pulled down to the ground I will soar above it and squeal with joy!

Keeping my head above the water...

I skipped so much time blogging- when I was feeling so good...I got busy and tied my time up with activities and distractions.

Now I am at a point that I am feeling a bit like I am just working hard to stay afloat! I know it has a lot to do with the fact that this past week my doctor doubled one of the meds, and changed some others around, I am trying to get a grasp on that fact and not let it bring me down. I was feeling so great for so many weeks, I am sure this is just a temporary set back. It is pretty typical when this med (Coreg aka cardevilol) is increased one will feel fatigue, and other symptoms. Frankly I feel pretty crappy almost like I felt months ago and it is pretty frustrating...

I decided to write it down and put it out there because I think it will help to just say it! I am feeling a but overwhelmed with my job- don't want to publicize all the details, but a lot of major changes have occurred there and it is a huge adjustment. Financially I am a bit overwhelmed, I think this past year has caught up with me.

Its not all dark clouds , there is a lot of good things going on in my life right now, I just had to whine a bit, and want the reader to know that I am fighting to keep my head above the water, and I will not stop! I am not going to give up, I will just keep treading water!